The truth of the matter is, there can be several reasons behind the foisting of the validation of one reality over another. The intention behind it could be very pure. X could genuinely believe that their truth is the sole truth, above all else, and that you are misguided because your experience is different. In X's eyes, they are leading a righteous cause to put Y on the path to the truth and their version of salvation or happiness.
On the more insane end they may use bodily harm (or the threat of) but in case of interpersonal relationships it could be through shame/guilt/fear used tactfully, or blatantly, to manipulate , even with the well-meaning intention behind it. In cases when this successfully happens, Y either completely blocks out their connection to themselves or Y may still live out a rich inner life, but one that is suffocated and lived only in the privacy of the self. The essence (or at times even who Y thinks they are because they were already not that connected within themselves to begin with) of Y is never able to be expressed or only feels safe expressing itself when X isn't around, leading to a further sense of guilt, as well as several other reactions, including a tacit thrill at doing something not kosher.
Another possibility is that to acknowledge that the other has a equally valid experience that is different may suggest to X that there may be something wrong within X's own experience. Someone who truly believes that their experience of reality is true to them, regardless of what your experience is will not get self defensive or lash out or degrade your experience. They will be comfortable with the fact that your experience of the same reality differs completely and still be able to see that neither s point of view is more valid.
However, in cases where there is a lashback, the rightfulness of X's reality is threatened- X feels like the authority of their reality is being challenged and undermined .This may escalate as it turns into a question of whose reality will be forced upon the consciousness of the collective. Much more complicated when it's a division between a nation in question though the intensity of damage that can ensue in interpersonal dynamics can be quite surreal too.
To someone who isn't comfortable with their own self and what they've stashed inside their subconscious in order not to face it, it can feel terribly lonely to be by themselves. If you don't know who you are, no one ever will because you don't own that experience of yourself. At times, when a person is single, they clamour to be with somebody, even if it's a fleet of different casual sexual partners one after the other- it's the only time they're not alone. It's the only time a connection is possible where you're actually sharing space that goes perceptibly beyond the physical with another, so you don't feel alone inside yourself. You only want to lose yourself in someone else if you don't feel at home inside yourself.
Sometimes it also happens that we give up a piece, or all of ourselves because this is what we believe that the other person requires, and because we love them and have decided that no matter what we need to make them content to keep them in our lives, we sacrifice who we really are. We may even willingly give our power away because to us this symbolizes what love means- sacrifice of our own sacred divinity. Or maybe we think they know better than us, and we apply their truth to our own and find ours lacking, so impressed by theirs we latch on to it. This perverts a persons inner truth, as it becomes distorted, into a forced impersonation of what the other person expects or demands to see.
In romantic relationships sometimes people want to bond to the other so that there is no difference between either experience, they are one and the same. That's when a sense of self is lost, and the very reason that draws them together, fades.
Sometimes this manipulation has been instigated by the other persons desire to live your experience rather than their own, other times it's the will of the conscious self with the agenda of convincing itself it's not alone. Either way it keeps a person from being partners finding ways to create together without stifling their the creative soul that lives inside. Alternatively, if the other person has a fear that you will somehow manage to damage their own relationship with themselves. That person could feel that you want to go deeper into them than they have gone within themselves and that scares them, because they have a clue at what you could find, but worst yet even they don't know what you could discover there.
Till you learn to be intimate with your own innermost self, it can create a fear of letting someone else venture in there. In couples who work despite this, it's because they both learn to grow together, learning to be more introspective as a team effort that both undergo, where an unknown, volatile, minefield-like terrain is bravely foraged into with not just a witness but an active participant- something not all that easily accomplished given that most of us have an insidious subconscious fear of being found out as phony's who are not good enough, leading to a deep sense of shame.
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