This path I've chosen, the one I encourage you to take to empower yourself- the one I help people walk with the energy work and counselling I do, entails some real hard work. It's hard work because it means that you must be brutally honest with yourself.
That you take out all your innermost demons and hidden feelings out of the closet and look at them in the face, and then send them love and forgiveness to set them free. To rustle up the uncomfortable and the unfamiliar, and to simultaneously let go of baggage that has become so comfortingly familiar and has helped keep a defense against all that could potentially hurt us.
It means to realize that they are mostly constructs of a child's way of protecting the self- and that's what the ego really is. It's a child's reaction of not just putting up armour against the world, but also adapting to what it's told is true, trying to squelch all those other thoughts that came from a different place from what it was taught by society and tradition and culture to.
It means being vulnerable with yourself, to the extent that you force yourself to confront your innermost shames, the roots of what made you put up this armour in the first place.It stirs up all that you had buried within you in order to be able to exist, believing that if you actually dealt with it, it would explode in your face, overwhelming you.
In order to transmute them to heal yourself you must, as mentioned before, send it unconditional love and forgiveness but also recognize it and know that you are more than it-you are more than the stories that you have allowed to form your definition of who you are. To allow yourself to remember who you really are. The person that the child was before it learnt to protect itself from the world by putting boundaries on it's own sense of curiousity within a place of non judgement at all times. The true landmark of innocence.
It's value-filled work though. It's the kind of work that's satisfying and fulfilling and makes you feel really alive. It makes you feel like you're growing, and moving within. It's the kind of work that you want to keep doing because you keep remembering the part of yourself that knows that you can do this.
The part of you that remembers who it is, that knows there's a you that exists beyond all the conditioning you received, beyond the judgement you were taught between constructs of right and wrong. A you that knew how to question things with curiousity, and a sense of healthy skepticism rather than a jaded cynicism.
That part of you knew how to imagine, and knew that at some point imagination was more than making believe. This aspect of you knew how to feel and that feelings were an experience they weren't good or bad. It was also not taught that feelings are in some way shameful because they have an element of being something you can't control, so it just let them through as they happened, not holding on to any of it. This is the part of you that keeps rooting you on, to look in deeper, to break past the chains and constructs created for you.
The work is valuable because it helps you gain access to this part of you. It's teaching you not just to think for yourself, but also to feel for yourself.
The harvest of this work nurtures and feeds this part of you. As you heal it allows those seeds of what you always were, watered by your lessons and experiences, to grow into the beautiful creation you've always been, and still are.
If you do it, do it for yourself and you will never be disappointed with the results.
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